Hey there! So I love and don’t love this quote at the same time. In the end it’s always your choice…
But is it really?! Can it really be OUR choice? For someone who is struggling with depression sometimes it feels like it’s not our choice. It can sometimes feel like the universe is working against us in everything.
On days that my depression is more present I can just sit in my chair in my bedroom and stare outside. Staring at nothing, more zoned out. I am bla! I feel bla! Everything is bla.
It was the fall and I was sitting in my chair. I may have just finished nursing Miss N or sat down for a second. I don’t remember. What I do remember was staring out the window and started to get in the bla feeling. But, guess what!? I wasn’t in a bla feeling.
I chose to not be miserable. I CHOSE! It would have been easy to slip into depression in that moment but I didn’t. So there I sat choosing to motivate myself in that moment to not let depression and bla get the best of me.
Want to know the cool thing? It has happened many times. many times I sat in that chair feeling myself starting to slip. Then my mind set changed and I chose to not to that to myself.
In that instance I was able to choose. So maybe it’s always your choice. Maybe all this time I felt that nope, I can’t get myself out of this bla or funk. Maybe it was myself taking the easy way out. Maybe not.
Wither you believe that it’s always your choice or not I’d rather choose to motivate myself then to be miserable. What would you choose?